MY WISH LIST

Name me a girl who's in the correct of mind wont be happy for her wedding?

I am happy, and of course in the quest of making it to---->perfection.

But everyone's having their own definition for this.


For me,

I want my nikah to be done at masjid, surrounded by families and close friends.

I want, when Amran kisses me on my forehead, the sheer of cold sweat is because iI feel loved when all my loved ones are here.

I want all the heartbreaks, frustrations and disappointments diminish into the thin air the moment Amran says "Aku terima nikahnya..."

On the night of akad nikah, I want all my guests, especially my non-Kelantanese friends to enjoy the nasi kerabu Mak ordered from the famous MokJoh Penambang and also have the taste of Kelantanese sweet delicacies Mak ordered from the famous Niks who cater royalties for years.

I want all my friends to join the tepung tawar session as I've prepared myself the special bunga telor to be passed which caused me backpain for days.

I want all my friends to be with me giving the *First Time* poses on the dais, as u know my family is the reserved lot, they wont give me these crazy poses.

I want the not so update dais that I took from NBride wont turn out so bad. Same goes to make up, songkets and lace kebaya.

I want my photographer, AriffinMukhtar manages to capture the beautiful moments of everything since he comes quite cheap, n sometimes cheap means bad.

I want all my friends not to feel left out during my wedding since it's just a very small reception, so by right I should be able to entertain all.

I want the guests to be contented with the dodol and Kisses I stuff into the gown and tux boxes I bought via online tho Mak loathes them. And dodol bought by Lat must be good, I trust her taste.

I want everyone to enjoy the food during my reception for Haji Halim Caterer is one of the famous caterer in Kota Bahru, so he must live up to the reputation by giving us good and delectable food.

I want Amran will look at me as if I am the most beautiful woman in the world.

I want Mak to be happy with the choice I made and always pray for my happiness as I've brought her a lot pain too.

I want Amran to be received by all my family members, and Dina would be at ease with him since this favourite niece of mine is not easily open up to new people. And sorry Dina, the name Farah Farhana Ain Puteri you choose for your future cousin wont be real because your Pakcik Amran wants ours to start with "A".

I want. I want.Iwant.

But in quest of perfection, I know I have to accept whatever that comes.



Because by the end of the day,
I just want to lay in your arms and weeping silently of joy and despair.

benci

I thought they had blocked the internet access to writing blogs since i heard they did.( no Farmville, Youtube) but nay, it wasnt. And bcuz of stressfull things happening around me these days so i need a place to vent out my anger and frustration. Although this is no longer a sudut rahsia but i dont care i just want to write it out you get me.

Stereotyping, generalising is so schoolgirls u know. What if I am teslian?what if i dont don scarf?what if i teach drama in class?what if i teach songs in class?

Do these mean that you can look down at me and assume bab2 menggedik atas pentas serahkan saja

I am so pissed today.yesterday.and maybe tommorow too.

Then the big Q comes again. Am I making the right decision?
We were fighting for almost the same thing for years and I dont see much effort from both sides to not repeating it again somehow in the future.

I am exhausted.

Salah ibu mengandung kot.

I was blog hopping just now and read some of my students'(ex) blogs and I am quite taken aback when the word f*** and many others are widely used.

Is it my fault?
When I was angry, nose flaring with fire, did I write the same thing?

Did I?

Won't there be 'better' words to choose instead of every 10words must be embellished with f***?

What's f***ing wrong with me that I couldn't bear the word f***?

F***.

It feels like new

Study week (a week),exam week(a week too!), midterm break for 2weeks, and plus another 1week holidays due to H1N1.

Such a loooooong holidays we both had.

So, walking into classes today feels like new.

And yeah. I put on my new pink chiffon baju kurung..phewwit.

Raya dh nk dekat kan?

Oh my.
Its been ages. Sorry sayang..i have many secrets to tell, but everything is soo mixed up so let me arrange the items in my brain first then i will throw up everything to you yah darling?

First.

My First minor Operation --well, i need to exaggerate a bit, so u can be kesian to me;)

I always have problems with my skin, let alone pimples kudis or kurap, they all seem to have favor on me. Okep. Not kurap yep. I am not that ugly. So I've been having this lump -lokasi rahsia-early of the year but I dont really give a hell of it bcuz it's not itchy, painful or anything similar to that. However, when my sister appointed that to me, I was like "Err".
And to cut a long story short, it was known as 'sebacious cyst' and needed to be removed.
3weeks before the operation date were really challenging. It was getting bigger and bigger and my..paaaainful as well. I couldnt sleep or even wake up. How could a candy size lump bring such ailment to now 50kg lady? I went to HTAA again asking for a sooner operation date and on 24thJune, I got it excised. Alhamdulillah. Now gone the pulsing pain on my dot. I dont have to cup it first before waking up or lying down. No more midnite cries. Huhu.Hopefully I would be fully recovered and it wont come again.

Pics:later.

Sakit mata tak?

Some random pix to add your eye soreness.

Enjois.


1 2 3 Turn.


Suci je muka after being soaked in water 4 4hours.


Motif pose?


Serius macam painting.


Di akhiri dengan pose plg special..Auwww.