It's my fault to put hope so high that when it doesn't go as expected, i fall.into.pieces.
Future is still bleak.
Transfer process doesn't look so promising.Sigh.
Been planning to look for other backups but what are they?
I always thought that living together would be the starting point of our lives, towards better things-executing whatever plans that we have.
Since that might not happen real soon, need to make other things work.As well. Sigh.
So without thinking so much of where this could bring us, we are a step closer on XXX.
Not to forget we are still miles away on other happy things.
Still, say a little yeay!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
LPT*Lebuhraya Pantai Timur
Saya dengan LPT memang takleh connect.
There's always a big mess when when I drive through the way.
One classic story was when I forgot to withdraw money from the atm, causing me literally cashless to pay the toll. And I ended up crying next to my car when a very considerate stranger offered for help.
And today, about 3hours ago I was chasing hub's bus, to pass his car and home keys which he forgot to take from the small compartment in my car. And the best thing was I didnt bring along my mobile, so the only mode of communicating was the public phone booth.Bummer!
For the very first time, I drove to 120-150km/h and it was mad u know. Amran had asked the driver to wait at the RnR Gambang, and he actually stopped for only 5mins, and left when I was actually about 5mins behind. Benci betul bas SPBumi, Sayang next time tak payah naik bas ni okayy. I was right behind the bus when it reached Maran, and I assumed he would stop at RnR Temerloh since that's the pit stop for any busses. I am the regular so I know, but he did not! So I followed the bus further up thinking it might stop at RnR Lanchang because some drivers prefer Lanchang to Temerloh, less people. But he did not.
Damn you bus driver!! (I think he purposely did that!!Seriously!)
I stopped at Lanchang and asked nicely this kakak to borrow her phone. Again, I depended on kindness of strangers. There were no phonebooths around,sobs.sobs. Misscalled Amran,he called me back saying sorry bla bla but I perfectly understood his feeling for wasnt I the one supposed to be in his position, not him, aye??
Talked to some bus drivers there, and they suggested I left the keys at the shop over there since there would be a Transnasional bus to Shah Alam coming up at around 6.30pm. So Alhamdulillah. Such a relief. The guy whom I passed the keys to even asked, "Eh bukan akak selalu naik bas kan?Macam biasa tengok." See?
The chase of 300km to and fro was over.
My feet are swollen and,my eyes are blurry.
What most important is my man arrives safe and sound.
And I hope he understands the feeling I-Didnt-Do-It-On-Purpose when "I told you so" was never uttered at all, by me. (though I refrained myself so much not to)
There's always a big mess when when I drive through the way.
One classic story was when I forgot to withdraw money from the atm, causing me literally cashless to pay the toll. And I ended up crying next to my car when a very considerate stranger offered for help.
And today, about 3hours ago I was chasing hub's bus, to pass his car and home keys which he forgot to take from the small compartment in my car. And the best thing was I didnt bring along my mobile, so the only mode of communicating was the public phone booth.Bummer!
For the very first time, I drove to 120-150km/h and it was mad u know. Amran had asked the driver to wait at the RnR Gambang, and he actually stopped for only 5mins, and left when I was actually about 5mins behind. Benci betul bas SPBumi, Sayang next time tak payah naik bas ni okayy. I was right behind the bus when it reached Maran, and I assumed he would stop at RnR Temerloh since that's the pit stop for any busses. I am the regular so I know, but he did not! So I followed the bus further up thinking it might stop at RnR Lanchang because some drivers prefer Lanchang to Temerloh, less people. But he did not.
Damn you bus driver!! (I think he purposely did that!!Seriously!)
I stopped at Lanchang and asked nicely this kakak to borrow her phone. Again, I depended on kindness of strangers. There were no phonebooths around,sobs.sobs. Misscalled Amran,he called me back saying sorry bla bla but I perfectly understood his feeling for wasnt I the one supposed to be in his position, not him, aye??
Talked to some bus drivers there, and they suggested I left the keys at the shop over there since there would be a Transnasional bus to Shah Alam coming up at around 6.30pm. So Alhamdulillah. Such a relief. The guy whom I passed the keys to even asked, "Eh bukan akak selalu naik bas kan?Macam biasa tengok." See?
The chase of 300km to and fro was over.
My feet are swollen and,my eyes are blurry.
What most important is my man arrives safe and sound.
And I hope he understands the feeling I-Didnt-Do-It-On-Purpose when "I told you so" was never uttered at all, by me. (though I refrained myself so much not to)
Monday, January 10, 2011
It happened after azan was heard
Somehow I just couldnt keep my eyes close tonight.
Sigh.
Amran left this afternoon with the smell of his perfume lingered on the bedsheet.
He gave me a really good surprise by knocking on my door on Saturday evening.
We did actually agree on staying at our own since I would start my 1week holiday this coming Thursday.
But I didnt know what crazy emotions had possessed for getting agitated when Fri came.
So when I drew the curtain to see who was knocking, I was overwhelmed.
With a heap of guilty.And buckets of happppp-py.
If I was not in my wudu', I would seriously jump on him and wet his face for my sloppy kisses.
He later told me if I was not in my wudu' he would ......haha.I dont think so.
So please Thursday come quick.
Cant wait to be fulltime housewife for a week.
Sigh.
Amran left this afternoon with the smell of his perfume lingered on the bedsheet.
He gave me a really good surprise by knocking on my door on Saturday evening.
We did actually agree on staying at our own since I would start my 1week holiday this coming Thursday.
But I didnt know what crazy emotions had possessed for getting agitated when Fri came.
So when I drew the curtain to see who was knocking, I was overwhelmed.
With a heap of guilty.And buckets of happppp-py.
If I was not in my wudu', I would seriously jump on him and wet his face for my sloppy kisses.
He later told me if I was not in my wudu' he would ......haha.I dont think so.
So please Thursday come quick.
Cant wait to be fulltime housewife for a week.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
MAIKK 2010
Some KMPh commitee has put up photos during MAIKK2010 so here they are.
Dinner was so-so. But I loved to see how warm and laidback the environment was. Even the big shots performed on the stage. Nope, nope.Not karaoke. But presenting us with this funny silly sketch. Sangat sporting.
This photo makes me super fat. I know I'm gaining weight now, but I dunno how could it become so obvious in this picture. To my defense, I was wearing jeans underneath for I needed to catch the bus later. But still I looked fat.Sobs.Sobs. Next to me is K.Firdaus, and she's going to the US this coming holiday.She said if I need to pesan anyting, just let her know, but you knowlah. Spending on handbags or makeups aint what i wanna do to start the new year.
Oh i'm fat. I still coulnd stop whining about it. I drank air halia for the past 3 weeks before K.Anis scolded me. I didnt aware of the heat frm air halia could somehow affect my eggs. So I stopped. But it really worked.Seriously.I lost 3kg, but I guessed this photo doesnt do any justice.;)
Dinner was so-so. But I loved to see how warm and laidback the environment was. Even the big shots performed on the stage. Nope, nope.Not karaoke. But presenting us with this funny silly sketch. Sangat sporting.
and.....
All's well ends well.Cheerios!!
Monday, January 3, 2011
My Song
I'm digging everything about Bruno Mars and oh gosh.I'm totally swooned over him. Hubs has been singing this song for past few weeks, and told me this is my song..so yeah.
My song it is.
My song it is.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Welcome 2011
Let's recap what had happened in 2010.
There were some happy moments, some were not. There were times I laughed till my head off, some other time I would cry silently,inside. But that now has become memory since we are in 2011 now y'all.
So, lets see what I've achieved/not achieve so far.
In terms of relationship, June marked the most memorable one. I got married to the one I love. I felt blessed because of all the hardships, we managed to be together. And somehow I felt so grown up. I think I am more accomodating towards him. I mean I learnt to be more understanding, and of course tolerance. I listened to him, and looked for his words. I let him plan for lotsa other things and just go with his flow. This is so much of because I felt I was like paying back his kindness. During our courtship, he never said no to my requests. I dragged him to almost everywhere, never in my mind thought of how tired he would be, how big the hole burnt in his pockets was,how uncomfortable of him to be in the circle and etc. I wanted to win in every fight.I wanted to be heard all the time, and ignored his. So somehow June 2010 marked the wiser,matured me.I hope so.
And I got closer to Mak. I guess when everything was settled, nothing of her to worry much about me, the reponsibility of her taking care of me has handed down, so we got along well and swell.;)Shukor also just got himself a stable job at Proton.And I could talk some wifey talk with Ogy,Riq,K.Yus.
My relationshipship with my officemates is getting way better. I could connect with some of them, and share some personal things. I guess everyone has toned down, including me. I no more felt left out, and even if I'm alone, I still could survive. I did my work, mingled when I felt I should socialize, or else just locking infront of pc doing my own thang.
But I think I did worst with my friendships.I was hurt,and hurt badly though I knew I should not have.But with some white lies, unpicking calls/unreplied sms at the peak of the moments, I just didnt know how to react nonchalantly.Perhaps, time will heal.Because I know I still need them, and I need to know that I am still much needed too.
In terms of financial, oh gosh. It went haywire. I didnt have savings at all!!With both of us travelling back and fro every weekend (Kuantan-S.Alam-Kuantan), nothing much could be planned.
Btw, these are what I'm expecting this year, 2011:
1. Be a better Muslimah. Not to skip the prayers, cuba to cover up,Insyaalah.
2. To see my tranfer application approved, Ya Allah,please grant my wish.
3.Once I'm in Selangor, we can plan our financial better, and get a home to call ours.
4. And continue with my plan to do Masters.
5.Dikurniakan cahaya mata. Amin.
6.Be nearby my sisters.
7.More family vacations. And island escapades!!
8.Better friendships.
Dan semualah yang bagus2 not only for me, but everyone.
Goodbye 2010, Welcome 2011!!
There were some happy moments, some were not. There were times I laughed till my head off, some other time I would cry silently,inside. But that now has become memory since we are in 2011 now y'all.
So, lets see what I've achieved/not achieve so far.
In terms of relationship, June marked the most memorable one. I got married to the one I love. I felt blessed because of all the hardships, we managed to be together. And somehow I felt so grown up. I think I am more accomodating towards him. I mean I learnt to be more understanding, and of course tolerance. I listened to him, and looked for his words. I let him plan for lotsa other things and just go with his flow. This is so much of because I felt I was like paying back his kindness. During our courtship, he never said no to my requests. I dragged him to almost everywhere, never in my mind thought of how tired he would be, how big the hole burnt in his pockets was,how uncomfortable of him to be in the circle and etc. I wanted to win in every fight.I wanted to be heard all the time, and ignored his. So somehow June 2010 marked the wiser,matured me.I hope so.
And I got closer to Mak. I guess when everything was settled, nothing of her to worry much about me, the reponsibility of her taking care of me has handed down, so we got along well and swell.;)Shukor also just got himself a stable job at Proton.And I could talk some wifey talk with Ogy,Riq,K.Yus.
My relationshipship with my officemates is getting way better. I could connect with some of them, and share some personal things. I guess everyone has toned down, including me. I no more felt left out, and even if I'm alone, I still could survive. I did my work, mingled when I felt I should socialize, or else just locking infront of pc doing my own thang.
But I think I did worst with my friendships.I was hurt,and hurt badly though I knew I should not have.But with some white lies, unpicking calls/unreplied sms at the peak of the moments, I just didnt know how to react nonchalantly.Perhaps, time will heal.Because I know I still need them, and I need to know that I am still much needed too.
In terms of financial, oh gosh. It went haywire. I didnt have savings at all!!With both of us travelling back and fro every weekend (Kuantan-S.Alam-Kuantan), nothing much could be planned.
Btw, these are what I'm expecting this year, 2011:
1. Be a better Muslimah. Not to skip the prayers, cuba to cover up,Insyaalah.
2. To see my tranfer application approved, Ya Allah,please grant my wish.
3.Once I'm in Selangor, we can plan our financial better, and get a home to call ours.
4. And continue with my plan to do Masters.
5.Dikurniakan cahaya mata. Amin.
6.Be nearby my sisters.
7.More family vacations. And island escapades!!
8.Better friendships.
Dan semualah yang bagus2 not only for me, but everyone.
Goodbye 2010, Welcome 2011!!
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